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It’s Friday! Bring on the awesomeness that is the weekend.

Bridget Regan, you are so lovely, let me count the ways.

Okay first, she was a fan of the books (Sword of Truth Series) before she saw a script of the TV show.
She is a stage actress, so she is poised
Clearly she understands the character she is playing (BAMC!)
She is genuine and honest
She gives amazing interviews
She loves her fans, even the silly ones
She has a sense of humor

And! She is not only smart, but pro gay too!

Um, have you SEEN this woman. She is gorgeous, with her natural hair color or not.
She can fight with knives, and swords

She needs to be on the stage, screen (small and large) for a VERY long time

*cough WONDERWOMAN PEOPLE cough* Srsly. The perfect woman has been found, and she is living in New Zealand at current.

And yes, I KNOW what the song She Bop is about… do you? *snicker*

Speaking of songs, and meanings (yes I was, vaguely) 

Has anyone but me listened to the lyrics of ‘DOLLHOUSE’ by switchblade symphony  and gone, ‘huh, that is so like dollhouse the tv show’. Think about it!
I am just saying, it’s an interesting coincidence, no?

PUSHING, PULLING ME DOWN AGAIN
PUSHING, PULLING ME DOWN AGAIN
IT’S GETTING BAD I CAN’T BREATHE
I WON’T LET THEM IN
I WON’T LET THEM IN
CRUSHING, PUSHING ME DOWN AGAIN
CRUSHING, PUSHING ME DOWN AGAIN
I NEED TO GET AWAY

LISTEN NOW TO THEIR HURTING WORDS
THEY RIP AND THEY DO TEAR
PUSHING OUT ALL OF MY HIDDEN THINGS
HOLD MY HAND AND TAKE ME THERE
SICKENED EYES SEEM TO MESMERIZE
THEY’RE MELTING AS THEY GLOW
MEMORIZE YOUR ALIBIS
THEY’RE LAUGHING IN THE SNOW

PEOPLE CLIMBING UP THE WALLS
BREAKING ALL OF MY WRETCHED DOLLS
FINGERNAILS THEY SCRATCH OUTSIDE
IN THE ATTIC IS WHERE I’LL HIDE
PEOPLE CLIMBING UP THE WALLS
BREAKING ALL OF MY WRETCHED DOLLS
FINGERNAILS THEY SCATCH OUTSIDE
IN THE ATTIC IS WHERE I’LL HIDE
I WON’T LET THEM IN

And to not be overwhelmed by the awesomeness of this posts beautiful people.
I am somewhat annoyed that lesbians in media (TV, movies, books) either are insane, or die. Isn’t there a middle ground somewhere in all of this people? I mean, srsly. Do you think we are either demented sociopaths or deserve to die rather than have happiness? (yes I am still reading the 4th Sword of Truth book, The Temple of the Winds, and if you read it you KNOW) It just… is irritating. We are boring too. Live simple lives. It’s not all glamour, death and mayhem. We are not being punished for the way we live our lives in REALITY so why in FANTASY? Ugh. I’m am quasi guilty of killing of lesbians in my writing as well, but hey, when 90% of my characters are gay, it is going to happen. From time to time.
(/rant)
HAPPY FRIDAY!

How or why it became Thursday I will never know (apparently there is this whole theory about the earth moving around the sun and that is how we keep track of time) but wow, it’s here already? I have been caught unawares.

oh shit… new foamy. Respect the Squirrel!

Re-watched Epitaph One (Dollhouse) yesterday. *insert caterwauling against FOX* There could have been so much more they could have done on that show if allowed. But you know how people lament something ending before it’s time… what would have happened if they let Joss run with the ideas and they petered out and jumped the shark? Then where would we, the rabid fans, be? I’m just asking. Also, I so wanted to hand Felicia Day a brush through the whole episode. WHAT? I like my female stars to have perfect and shiny hair. This is part of the mindcontrol appeal of Kahlan, don’t you know. And, hello fan girl SQUEEE, in like a week I will be standing amid crowds and oogling Felicia at the ECCC. Totally awesome.

Tonight will be a Damages night, because disk two of Season Two just arrived in the mail. With all that I will certainly get through the day.

And if that isn’t enough, the promise of working on some Fuffy later will certainly do the trick.

Okay, so I had to change one of my work passwords on Wednesday, and while I can’t tell you what it is, (its a password after all) I can say that every time I type it in I have a grin  / chuckle. And as I do this about 7 times a day, it is awesome.
In hot girl news, My Katie  (yes, I call her that, hush) Kate Winslet  is slated to be in the remake / miniseries being done of  Mildred Pierce for HBO.
I’ll be thankful to see Kate acting, because she is lovely, but as it is on HBO, does this mean there will be nakedness? Not sure how I feel about that. The naked I mean. I’ve seen the movies where she is naked, and well… weird as it may sound as me being a 1. Lesbian & 2. having a huge crush on Kate I don’t watch to see the naked, I watch because she is a fraking amazing actress! A-mazing.  But anyway, I am not sure why so many people are all up in arms about this being done, a remake or what not. Hello people, don’t you see that every TV show,  movie lately is a remake??? Get over it. I do have the book, by James M. Cain which I read a long LONG time ago, but perhaps I will pick it up again. I vaguely recall the movie as well, (with Joan Crawford) I know I know I lose gay points for that statement, but it is the truth. This should be interesting. I am sure there will be more to follow later. 
In the news of the odd… Theo has started to purr / grunt / mumble when he is annoyed or bored. It is trippy.
Here in the beauteous Pacific Northwest to get from the east side into the city (being Seattle) one has four options, two of those are over land and curvy and long, the other two, which people take 99.999% of the time are the two floating (they don’t totally float, but eh) bridges. And sometimes when you drive over one, especially when it is windy you feel it move and get that flash of fear that if this sucker snaps you are going to be sleeping with the fishies. The other, which seems more sound (it’s newer) is generally being crossed by asshats who drive too fast or slow and make a mess of the whole thing. Generally. Last night as I crossed over the I-90 bridge (newer one) I was freaked out by the amount of glass and shattered car bits pushed to the side of the road. I mean really, can’t they clean that stuff up? Why leave it there to freak the hell out of other drivers? I’m just saying. Unnerving!
And let’s round out todays entry with a dash of the Whedonverse. So, last night, re-watching the unaired pilot for Dollhouse,  (fuck you fox) it just solidified and reminded me how restrained leashed gagged  Joss was in the filming of this series. You can see the foreshadowing in the pilot about where they wanted to take the characters, and the sort of experiences they wanted Echo / Caroline to have. Real meaningful human experiences with the small sampling of pervy rich dudes hiring Echo for rolls in the hay. It would have been a great way to explore morality, humanity, what is self and what is a soul. But.. instead we got. Well you know what we got. And sure, eye-candy to the nines. I’m not going to discount that, but I (and I am sure the masses) would have been better served and more in love with the show if it had traveled down the road that was intended for it.

Oh! Did you notice, not one mention of LoTs… Doh! I just did. Balls.

OMG. I spent… 2.5 hours last night, and then another 3.5 hours sitting here renaming and reformatting images for a new web page / project. And I only got through 258 images. *head meet desk* Oh the things I do for fun. I feel kinda like Echo right here. Seriously, I need to keep reminding myself that this all a gas, and done for the simple joy of it. For those playing at home? All 258 images? They were from LoTs (legend of the seeker) I kid you not. *squee*

I need to get my ass back to writing. I am still in the angst filled world of grr and arrgghhh. So I took some time last night to work on editing ch4. Which, been edited 3 times now so almost done, and will be ready for the Tuesday upload. Not sure if I will be ready to re-load the images (Buffy ones) I have been scrubbing by Tuesday, but that is a more open ended project.

Yes, I am very aware that my nerd flag is flying high.

Yes, I am aware that this post is really not saying anything. It merely is. A brain wipe for me. You try getting up when I do, and then jumping into an image correction project and you tell me how articulate you will be. *nods*

Soon I will run errands, and then I am thinking I need to like veg in front of the TV for a few hours. All this productivity is… well… too productive.

My first thought was  ‘it’s over.‘ *and cue big sigh*
My second thought was ‘Man Fox botched the end editing. seriously? No longing stare and smile?’
My third thought was ‘Joss is genius, and I sort of love Mo and Jed’s writing. Sorta being a whole lot.‘
Then I stopped keeping track of my thoughts.
While I put the whole Ballard / Echo love thing on my list of ‘The Bad’
The episode was good, and I hope you at home were playing along and understood. (I am assured that all Whedonites fall into that category) It was as nice of an ending as we could be given, you know under the thumb of nonfunctioning sociopathic network goons circumstances.
I will miss the Dollhouse, but more I will wait impatiently for the next thing. Because as Mare said, there will always be a Joss project going on. It’s a given.
That gives me happy face.

In other news, things that give me a happy face (get your mind out of the gutter!) The new project is coming along pretty well.

Ch 1 is online people! Join the ranks of the *checks* 58 people who had checked it out!
Ch 2 is edited. Shew.
Ch 3 is edited, but I think it needs something. either less or more, I don’t know!!! ARGH
Ch 4 in the can
Ch 5 in the can as well
Ch 6 done! Needs to be edited
Ch 7 outlined baby.

I know ch 3 is going to be longer than it’s predecessors, there is just so much going on, so it needs to be. It’s tough to find that happy medium, especially when I form my chapters around the ‘episode’ frame. You can’t go too long. oh!! ch 3 could be a very special extended two hour episode?? Huh… maybe?

So I am working on the Arch section of the piece, which as a writer is always the most difficult, bringing the little bits you left for the reader in the beginning back around, and using them as the bridge to get you to the climax. What makes it hard is writing it so that it feels natural and seamless. Good writing is hard work. *nods*

I’m off to have more coffee and get a couple hours writing in. Perhaps this getting up at 430am, not so bad, in the long run.